raw

this past week i got to film the lead role for an amazing character... but three days after, i feel so emotionally fucked up after inhabiting all her emotions that i can't stop crying for no reason at all. the character is dealing with the repercussions of emotional and physical abuse, and as an actress, i feel lucky to have gotten the chance to play a character of such depth. but on a personal level, i can't shake it off... my real life is nothing like the character's, but i feel like i got ripped open somehow. i feel small and fragile, raw and broken... my heart just feels like it's bleeding, slowly... and it hurts. it really hurts.

(nyc)